I am in that state when I pick up any book, he needs it. When I pick Quran, he needs it. When I pick mobile, he needs it. When I pray, he pulls me. I cannot go to washroom because he cries for being lonely. I cannot cook because either he wants the thing which is in my hand or he wants to open all drawers and cabinets and take things out.
I am just done with my life. It feels as if I have done my worst mistake. I don’t know. Maybe A person should not have aims in life specially a girl! A woman! BecAuse this is what she has to do at that end. Cleaning buts full of smelly poops!
Inna lillahe wainna ilaehirajeon! I am having the worst feelings right now. But I am helpless or maybe my Imaan level is very down or maybe no where.
And how it could be anywhere? When I cannot do anything. Allah! Please save me. Please do rehm on me. I am weak. Indeed very weak.