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You look ahead and you see a face you didn’t recognize. You feel alone. You face everything alone. You realize that this life is to live alone. Awkwardly staring at the wall. Tears dripping down cheeks. No reason. No fear. Its you and you. Either you die or live, no one knows. You are the creator of your own ways. Keep it to your self. Your hands are cuffed. Your mouth is gagged. Once you speak, you will be jailed and will be made dumb.

You want isolation after telling your problems or freedom after struggling against your problems. Choice is in your hands.

Fear OR Ego.

 

People pretend. They do so to hide themselves from the world and from themselves. They do so to look strong in front of others but deep in their heart they know they are the most coward one. This is fear. They are the one who need counseling. They are the one who needs to explode. They need to burst before they die. But they don’t do it. This is Ego.

These people fear. They fear of illusions made by their minds. They are consistently pulling themselves down. They are burying themselves under a pile of burdens from which no one can pull them out. They act like a butterfly that ties herself around a stone and then tries to fly, unaware that she has to untie the rope to get rid of the burden she is carrying. It is EGO and her FEAR which is making her reluctant to take the step and to bring revolution in her life.

If we wish to be free to fly we must cut the string attached to the rock by releasing all the baggage weighing us down. We have to take the risk; we have to think of the bigger picture. We must crush the ego and learn to open our minds to all possibilities, we must learn to dump all old man-made beliefs and be willing to let go of how we once used to live. There is no point to live within you. Those beliefs belong to the old world of fear and ego. You must face the world. You have to do it! If you are willing to live to examine yourself in this world for the world hereafter. LET IT GO! Nothing is going to fancy you day after tomorrow because today if it is IMPORTANT for you then tomorrow it will be CHILDISH.

Fear or Ego? Actually Fear is EGO!

Go where the path is leading you. Go where the pull is. Believe in yourself. Stop worrying about the world. Start worrying about the world hereafter. Remember the fear gets born when you’re afraid your ego might get bruised! Think over it.

Afraid to DREAM…

Dream is a temporary life we spend at night. Dream includes the good and bad peoples, the up and downs, the easy and difficult situations and we face those moments in dreams which we are afraid to face in real life. Dream can be a beautiful sight to remember or a horrible scene to forget. The more you get afraid to dream, the more you are caught in that situation.

Sometimes I wish I could have power over my dreams. I wish I could twist their directions according to my will. I am afraid of what my sub conscious mind is telling me. I am afraid of you. It’s the thought that makes me so afraid to dream. Let me dream my life, but let me not dream my life away.

Dream is like a movie which you have to see almost every night in which you can’t choose your favorite movie nor can you squeeze your eyes to skip the scenes. You have to see it and live it in any case.

Every night I ask myself: “What’s happening to me?”.
All the nightmares in my head try to kill me when I’m asleep.
I am restless, I am sad, I don’t know what I should do…
There’s a pain inside my soul, I don’t know why I’m so afraid…

I’m afraid…
I feel there’s someone watching over me, but I can’t explain.
There’s no one beside me, but there’s a coldness in my heart…
I know there’s something in the dark…cold it’s touching me…
It tries to break me, it tries to kill me… it’s tearing me apart!

I never want to close my eyes… (I never want to close my eyes…)
I don’t want to fall asleep… (I don’t want to fall asleep…)
I’m afraid…to dream… (I’m afraid…to dream…)
I’m afraid…to dream… (I’m afraid…to dream…)

–          Insomnia