My kid is not well these days, so lots of things are going on in my life. But today, it was too much. Not physically but mentally I am very tired and Alhamdullilah some how fawaaz slept early today so I can have some peace of mind.
While making fawaaz sleep, I was thinking why am I mentally so messed up right now. Where am I going wrong. And then I realized maybe I am doing too much. My closed ones usually use this sentence “you are doing too much” but I always shrugged this thought thinking I am free (fareg) whole day how is this possible.
But now I realize that though I maybe physically fareg the whole day but my mind is messed up about those things I have made myself responsible of, knowing the fact that fawaaz itself is 24hours responsibility. Kheir. May Allah Taala ease everyones matters because everyone is fighting their own battles.
This life is not for luxuries. Asal party tu Janaat may hoogi. Abhi tu bas aewe thoray mazay hein. Yahan tu bus mehnat kerni hai. Asal mazAy tu jannat k hungay inshaAllah.
I have my pApers from next week but I shouldn’t panic because asal imtehan tu woh hai jis may hum reh rahay hein. Yeh zindgi. Asal imtehan tu fawaaz hai. Us ki perwarish. Us ki tarbiyat. Allah Taala hum sab ko toufeeq dein k hum apnay saray faraiz alaa tarah say puray kerain. Ameen